dragario

2011-04-28T01:25:00.001-07:00

how i wish... life was simpler than what it is now =x
take out the love, put in a smile

2011-03-25T05:04:00.000-07:00

loooooooooong time since i updated =D

brief overview in my life: scope out ---
got a job @ sentosa gogreen, train ppl how to play the machine called Segway... lots of oversea guests coming in everyday, the one that all my colleagues hate to train the most: Indians.. seriously they dont listen to instructions... the moment i tell them not to bang into a tree, and CRASH there goes the machine.....

next: unofficially graduated from NYP! XD i m happy with my results... and for the first time in 3 years i got admitted into Directors List! WOOT~

next: SIT sms me to inform me i m short listed for an interview! YAY but i m scared of the interview -.- i know thawit n ruiying as well as nuraini also got short listed, the rest i dunno =x

ok i m satisfied with my results and currently working and playing maple (private server)

2011-03-09T07:26:00.000-08:00

u r a good girl... dont stay with me
leaving u is not garunteed to bring u happiness, but being tgt with u is garunteed to make u unhappy most of the times...

u shld be strong, learn to forget me for i m not worth it, and open ur eyes wide for someone who is nice, caring, tender and loves u alot. find that worthy guy... for i m scared of breaking ur heart yet again.....

SORRY

2011-03-09T06:09:00.000-08:00

the heartache of past
the weepings of present

the memories and bonds, were long gone
but i dw to give the false impressions, i just hope u be happier in future than u were when with me

2011-03-07T09:37:00.001-08:00

i lost hope in relationships. in u. in ALL girls. sorry

2011-02-27T08:46:00.001-08:00

up to ur la...
whatever makes your happy

2011-02-19T03:55:00.000-08:00

i never cheated on u or lied to u b4... but inevitably we still quarrel and fight over everything else under the sun

now if u tell me we are not meant to be... at least we have a clean breakup...
at least we wont fight anymore...

sorry

2011-02-16T19:51:00.000-08:00

recently i keep dreaming of weird things... and that person is always inside my dream T.T
why~~~

2011-02-15T07:38:00.000-08:00

today's attempt to study was: a fiasco

i did everything but studying.. just cant get the right mood
the apartment above mine was dunno renovating or constructing or something... start hammering and drilling at 10am... zzz cant even sleep to my fill then after that when i try to study also keep distracting me...

i guess when time is up... the flower will either blossom beautifully or just die off...

2011-02-13T21:00:00.000-08:00

lasst time u werent like this...
whatever it is, last time if u were angry + pms + a hell lot of stress etc...u will still at least listen to what i have to say... but now...when u are angry...all blame me, nv listen to me, i compromise also cannot, i give in still my fault...even if its got nothing to do with me

u changed into a totally different person from whom i knew...
and even very bascially...i nv tricked u, cheated u or lie in this relationship...i dont get a single bit of trust out of it.. whats the point of a relationship when i m willing u trust u 105% but u cant even afford to give me 10% trust...

ur temper, and anger is way too scary...u will rather burn off everyone rather than get a clear picture of everything that happened...thats very unfair and selfish...

2011-02-09T05:35:00.001-08:00

cuz we, only have one life....
live it well =D

2011-02-04T21:29:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! hahaha!

my new year day 1:
always been the same.. =D my mother sides's cousin (only 1 family though) of 5 kids came over to our house to bai nian! in the morning went over to father sides' grandma to bai nian (only grand-relative left =x)

actually every year is the same de la..becuz my mother sides' relative all over at other countries...only my mom and her sister came over to singapore..therefore i only have 7 people visiting us instead of 40 over (they are really very producible)

day 2: went to bugis to bai bai, then my n bro walked at bugis junction...came home..cousins came...faster forward >> played poppers and fire crackers...then walked around...played the drinking game...everyone drank alot -.-''

both days were fun but lacked a bit of qi fen -.- hehe look forward to today

2011-01-31T09:12:00.000-08:00

brrr...recently weather v cold

yay wednesday is CNY! whee~

i shall ignore all the bad things that happened
and start to appreciate the rest...thats my new year resolution...whee

ok i go sleep! byebyee~ =D

2011-01-30T00:09:00.001-08:00

u may say i have lousy attitude, bad temper, sucky etc etc

dont ask me to reflect on myself...YOU SHOULD DO THAT YOUSELF!

u are NOT aware of how temperamental u can get...
one side note for u... its okay to lose ur temper BUT:

1. dont lose ur temper everyday...EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY
2. dont lose ur temper over ridiculous reasons
3. dont lose your temper FOR NOTHING AT ALL
4. DONT LOSE YOUR TEMPER WHEN IT IS YOUR FAULT AT THINGS AND TRY TO BEND YOUR WAY INTO MAKING IT SOMEONE ELSE'S FAULT!

2011-01-17T06:40:00.000-08:00

believe in yourself... and dont depend on others...
live like u always did, and be who you really are... =D

2011-01-16T06:31:00.001-08:00

In your opinion, what does this picture depict? to me, it means, life is full of ups and downs. but there is definitely a balance in between...there is no perfection or eternity =D

in life, we cannot chose who we wanna be, what kind of lives we lead, who our parents are, and what will happen in the future, we are born with it...

trying to be who we are not is hard

trying to have a perfect smile is hard

trying to become handsome or rich is hard

but...YOU being who you are, is much easier, and it brings much more happiness accepting who you are rather than contemplating yourself for who you are not

so...BE YOURSELF and live your life to the fullest! thats living a worthy life...afterall, what is life?

life is not about bringing revolutions and changing facts...life is meant to be ENJOYED! =D

first step to find happiness is to to be happy with yourself

and first step to being happy with youself, is to accept who you are and smile because u are u...and not someone else =D

2010-12-25T07:18:00.000-08:00

if u ever fell into a relationship...DONT EVER CHOSE SOMEONE FROM YOUR OWN CLASS!
be it a happy one where everyday u see each other and smile...loving each other and seeing them everyday...OR a sad one where u quarrel over every single thing and fight over every of the smallest issues... just dont chose someone from your own class...at least wait till ur graduate...
otherwise dont regret what u did...becuz somehow or another even if u dont fight for the whole period of r/s in ur sch life..u will still regret it...

2010-12-24T09:38:00.000-08:00

its been 1323512313 years since i blogged...
so...recently...we had Class BBQ FS0802 @ Costa Sands Pasir Ris!
hahaha it was fun with many games and activities...not to exclude: Early Xmas Gift Xchange! hahaha
i got my present from fala, a lovely cup with a big volume capacity..hahaha thanks!
i got for jessie a computer mouse-hand-rest =.= hehehe

b4 chalet!... me hh and grace went to surprise roufang on 18th dec for ur belated birthday...exclusive video of her shocked face on my fb wall...hahaha..went to sing kbox after that...
yesterday i had steamboat with elwood..crapped the whole night with him and he taught me some really funny cantonese too LOL

today is Christmas!! Merry Christmas everyone hahaha
i won a Luffy keychain from tikam machine...the shop owner say i v lucky cuz everyone looking for it but cant get it..my first one kena alr...LOL yay~

and oh ya lastly...i recently struck lottery...first time in my life sia..i won $10 :DD
hehehe byebye everyone..and Merry christmas and HAPPY NEW YEAR! YAY

2010-11-13T08:50:00.000-08:00

i went to check my BP today
normal human adult male range: 120/80
mine was: 143/69

my distolic is normal but my systolic is TOO HIGH!
die die i dun wanna get stroke...lol

2010-11-09T06:01:00.000-08:00

feeling not-so-myself recently
why ah??
is it becuz of school? projects? environment??

come on i shall find myself again...

and to people who have weird moodswings
dont always give others hot n cold treatment...even the hardest concretes will crack due to fluctuations...

2010-10-31T04:24:00.000-07:00

should i just pretend i dunno what ppl do to me...and just be nice to them all the same??
becuz this way, its easier... not knowing what they did is much easier for me to live off with...
fine do whatever u want to me..i will just pretend i dunno it

2010-10-29T07:48:00.000-07:00

a relationship is not always lovey and sweet like depicted from movies and stories
there are always ups and downs
couples will fight and quarrel over even the smallest of things...
no one is a player in love...both parties are constantly being played, tested and put on trial.
a relationship is not about love, being happy and sweet or any other things
a relationship is what i would call a learning journey...
for both parties =)

2010-10-23T12:26:00.001-07:00

i sincerely hope, we can be good friends =))

2010-10-18T07:15:00.000-07:00

i love the first day of school today
why?
cuz

1. i woke up damn early just to attend a 15min briefing and thats it for the day! =D
2. we went out to plan LAN, though the connection sucks and my team doesnt really work out well together, but yea it was fun hahaha
3. went out together with friends to eat chat talk crap at liling's place
4. went to liling's hand empty handed and came back with big bag for containing anything and everything that it can hold XD

2010-10-14T19:38:00.000-07:00

13/10/10

went to Kbox with elwood and melvin

elwood sings pretty well with varying range of pitch =)

i sing pretty badly with my monotonous and yet manly voice =D

melvin sang the worse -.- no pitch no sound variation, he is more like saying out the lyrics than singing

had a joyful time =)

14/10/10

went party world with leslie, elwood and belinda. sang slightly better but still v v v awful, according to them XD

15/10/10

going kbox, scape, with roufang ^^

2010-10-11T07:25:00.000-07:00

first of all
i ended my work term at R1! HAHAH yay finally...after long hours of tortorous slavage for the patients, i get my pay and finally am ending..
thank u jessica, shin shin, su ching, arthur, kai xin, lai peng, yin shan, mei mei, and annonymous ( i m so sorry i dunno ur name!! =x) for ur wonderful and nice farewell card! hehehe and thanks for ur chocolates and especially Rena for ur one big BOX of chocolate HAHHAA i have so many chocolates now even though i dun really eat them -.-
i will definitely go back some day to visit de! heheheeh

2ndly, CLASS BBQ has taken place and is over with! yay
it was damn fun and nice...very lively and interesting...sorrry ruiying and peiyee for not being able to be there to help...sorry everyone for the trouble =D
sorry ms gan

the Bbq was v v v fun and i loved it...except someone felt like vomitting in the mid of the night hahaha...pregnant o_O
lots of food and card games...went along well with vodka and chit chattings...dunno what else to say...refer to fb pictures for the memories there...hahahhaa

ok i m freaking tired..i didnt sleep during the whole night, and when i went home at 12pm, i bathed and then met rf for movie at vivo...and i slept througout the movie -.-
$8 for a nap worth of aircon filled with laughter that i didnt indulge in hahaha...welll i love the past 2 days =) hehehe

2010-10-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

hihi
long time no update...so i m here to say something
hows my day today? answer:
it sucks

why? becuz i have to deal with a stupid bitch who lost control of her own beast inside her...
the problem is, one of the drug ran out of stock, and she was not the only one who was unable to collect her medication...and the option she has was to chose the drug with a weaker strength but double the dosage..however, doubling the dosage would also mean doubling the cost of the drug...
so this bitch was a staff, or somehow connected to a staff in this hospital....but so what...u cheapo ass who cant even pay for ur medication dont have to right to bark off like a mad dog...i gave her the alternative of paying double for the drug or having to come back another day to collect it when we have restocked it, when i told her..she went like "is that my problem, thats ur problem..u know this drug is a chronic drug and yet u dont have it, so thats your problem"
yea thats my problem as well as yours bitch...becuz u are the one who is collecting this drug..not ME!

no. 1, u are such a damn cheapo who cant afford ur own drug, right its our fault the drug went out of stock on such a busy day...but who can predict this incident...so if u wanna enjoy some staff benefits and also use ur own medisave acct to pay for it, BE PATIENT! cheapo

no. 2, u are not the only one who cannot collect it, there are more than 20 patients who face the same situation, and i dont see them making a fool out of themselves like u did...

no. 3, if u are unhappy with the system and how things operate at this pharmacy, then SCRAM! i didnt take home ur drug or eat it like some candy...dont lose ur control on me. bitch.

2010-09-10T09:58:00.001-07:00

what if what i planned was all just a dream??
lol nvm at least give it a try =)

ps: cant u be more understanding??

2010-09-03T06:20:00.000-07:00

他的父母不疼他，如果你们也不疼他，他就没用了。

2010-08-17T10:10:00.000-07:00

my craving =D

my dream car

and... my current car ^^

2010-08-03T07:58:00.001-07:00

Second post of the day,cause I can't stand it.I can't stand cooping up all my feelings in me. :(

Sometimes,I feel that if both of us didn't start that relationship,we won't end up being so sad and emo and idiotic and stupid.

Sometimes,I feel that if both of us decided to continue to become friends,we would be way better off,and be happier.Like you will find a better girl that could understand your feelings,while me,I will decide that later.

Sometimes,I feel that if both of us would compromise,it would be such a better relationship.

Sometimes,I feel that if our characters do not clash,it would be better,and we will not have many arguments.

Sometimes,I feel that if only I could put in that small effort to understand you,I would understand you better.

Sometimes,I feel that I should be stronger in a sense,so that I can don't cry so easily,and try not to do foolish things.

Sometimes,I feel that we shouldn't have start the relationship which was so hard to maintain.

But till the end,I still love you. :(

( adapted from your blog )

i m sorry to make u sad, but this time, it feels different, i m sorry.
lets start off differently this time =)

2010-08-01T09:33:00.000-07:00

when i get too bored at work

talking mysteriously over the phone

seems to be having a longgg chat, wonder whats he doing =/

ahhh, he's flirting on the phone XD

PS: i know!

i'm too sexy for your love =D

PS: picture editing credit goes to Goh Ruiying =D

2010-07-22T08:20:00.000-07:00

girls always look for assurance and security in love
however, there are NO insurance in love, there is only mutual trust and understanding
that alone can insure a lifetime coverage, dont be greedy and expect more than u can receive

5 things to learn in life:

1. live simply
2. free your heart from hatred
3. free your mind from worries
4. give more
5. expect less

this 5 pointers in life is the insurance u need to get =D

*adapted from joanna de picture in her facebook- dunno where she kope*

2010-07-19T08:01:00.001-07:00

blood boil

2010-07-09T06:02:00.001-07:00

Love is like a HACCP plan

1. Hazard analysis (why fall in love, what are the things u might lose if u are in a r/s, are u sure and very sure? if he only loves your body and not YOU?)

2. Identify critical control points (what if he/she cheats on you? what if you find out that he/she only wants your body etc)

3. Establish critical limits (only allow him/her to touch ur arms, waists. dont lie to you too much. cannot always be late!)

4. Monitor the critical control points (ask your friends or his/her friends to be your spy, call and check on him, stalk him -.-)

5. Establish corrective actions (talk it out/severe warning/scoldings/threaten to break off/really break off)

6. Establish record keeping procedures (learn from your mistakes, remember them vividly, dont repeat the mistake again, make sure u know what u are in for in a relationship)

7. Verification for the HACCP (ask yourself again, do u really love him/her?? do u think this guy/girl is trustworthy?? does the corrective action help solve the problem?? if not, then how??)

Everything goes in a circle =D

2010-06-22T05:53:00.000-07:00

a girl wont trust a guy
she will ask for prove and evidence
its not because the guy is not trustworthy
but becuz a woman will never under men, just like how men will never understand woman
so cross out that trust =D

sat 19/6 - my birthday, roufang melvin and alvin came to my house, cut cake, drank alot -.-
sun 20/6 - fathers' day, grandpa passed away
mon 21/6 - attended school, left at 3pm, went down to funeral, saw the fierce hostility from that family, esp the 3rd aunt who think shes some big fuck

End =D
(thanks everyone for ur wishes, thanks alotttt!, and thanks roufang, grace, wanwen, bro and sis for their presents :D, thanks mom and dad for ur angbao =))

2010-06-18T08:04:00.000-07:00

today mr maslam treat me to sakura international buffet again LOL

he seem to be reminiscent. HAHAHA

thanks mr maslam, always spare me :D

the food there is nice in moderation, but they stuff me with alot of food =.=

hahaha here is one pic of the restaurant @ Clementi woods:

2010-06-09T09:02:00.001-07:00

please stop thinking the way you are thinking
its not always about the environment
its not always about the ppl around u

sometimes, its just you and your thinkings alone

- Dont ask me who am i refering to, u shld know best -.-

2010-06-09T07:35:00.000-07:00

yo all~
fyp started in sch alr
first day was fun, and non-educative
2nd day was fun, and non-educative as well
3rd day i started to print out those notes i need for my practical sessions, and A T and N challenged me to a competition, if i can finish up all my researches and prac-ready by thursday, i win! :D
i think i might lose this challenge anyway =D

Ms Tay Mia Eng is my supervisor for this fyp project
she told me an interesting equation today: Pay = Salary / Time
so if salary is $2500 and working hours = 10 hrs x 6 working days
pay= $41.67

but if salary is $1800, and working hours = 8 hours x 5 working days
pay = $ 45
therefore, pay is not just based on the salary alone, its based on the free time u have and the time u spent at your workplace
which do u prefer ^^

2010-06-05T08:34:00.000-07:00

these are all the chocolates i got from my friends at F&N on my last day

meslam alone gave me 5 chocolates! 'see those repeated ones'

then angela treated me twice

meslam treated me umpteen times since i started working with him

marian treated me once, but of all the treats, i think angela is the most special one, cuz she treated me twice alr, and they all say she never used to treat any students who went there for IAP, but cuz i talk to her alot and quite close, thats why treat me- woo~

the angbao is from jenny, cuz she paiseh nv give me anything when i leave, and i also gave her a pack of gift bag (everyone got one, inside got some chocolates and biscuits ) then she gave me an angbao

but inside is.......................

one box of chlorets =.=

she say it looks nicer with something wrapping...hahaha!

oh ya inside got 2 lucky number she forgot to take out, she received that angbao last time frm dunno what event with the lucky number de, but i buy 4D today nv open, wasted $4 =.=

2010-06-03T07:46:00.000-07:00

i m drinking mango juice :D:D

2010-05-21T09:50:00.000-07:00

:so if 'someone' turns out to actually understand you more than i do, then i would have already lost by half

2010-05-20T09:30:00.000-07:00

whats with all the work polictics, school polictics and even friendship polictics
at work, i see ppl badmouthing each other, gossiping here and there, dirty little secrets sprouting out of nowhere and backstabbing one another
i dunno what'sup in school but friendship doesnt need a policy
if you are hanging on through the mean of 'gossiping', then think about what others will feel first
are u a true friend?

@F&N warehouse there is a boss called Mr Lok, who spoke to me once only, but he said "when u are working, you learn about work, and the things that you do and perform, but once u have already gotten them on hand, then whats next?"
"you must learn to observe people at work, the 'work' itself is dead, you must observe people, learn and improve, people make the changes at work and in life, so you observe the people, learn from mistakes, change from them, and improve from what you see''

i think its really meaningful huh, thanks mr lok -.-
i think, a person must be happy in life no matter what you do
dont regret the choice u chosen, live with it and live happily
life has to go on, hasnt it? =D

2010-05-08T07:49:00.000-07:00

love doesnt mean u have to be together
being always together might cause all sorts of problems to crop up, making u helpless, ironically, not being together can make u realise how much you love a person, when u start missing that person from the bottom of ur heart. =)

thanks rieko! =D
有些事是当事者迷，膀胱者清，所以，有时最好也别想得太多吧！

2010-04-26T05:54:00.001-07:00

when something is not worth it
there is no point giving it chances after chances

when its decided to that one can be happier after leaving, then thats the only possible route to take, the only logical route to take.

3 days...?

2010-04-24T05:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday ended work at 430pm. supposedly
but then the truck of yogurts came so late, so had to OT for 1hour, my OT no money one sia, cuz boss nv approve -.-

MR MESLAM treated me dinner! ALOT sia!

He said he buy us Fish and Chips, $6.50
then after that he bought 1 rojak and 1 carrot cake saying he very hungry LOL

then he said he buy drinks for us, then came back carrying 3 big ice kacang! LOL

Mr Ho also taking photos =D

(look at the ice kacang at the corner)

roufang =D

shy.. lol

2010-04-24T04:18:00.000-07:00

if being together, will snatch u away from the rest of the world, i rather not be together
call me selfish if u want, but love isnt supposed to be the way it is now

you have changed so drastically that even you yourself noticed it
i hope you can change yourself, and be happy, and thus, i will be happy for you

at times, love is not about being together, it is about letting go
dont go the hard way, dear.

2010-04-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

All these cars, lambo, ferrari

just one of these cars is enough to buy a bungalow or live the rest of ur live in luxury

but

how do these people get the money these super dulux cars??

money money money

an average person earning $2000 a month needs to save up for 50 years without spending a cent just to afford one of these cars...hmmmm

but, in contrast to these superich people, leading an ordinary life without the worry being robbed, business failure, earning enough to spend your wages happily with your friends and families, having enough to keep you alive and happy. once in a while going out and enjoying some nice and expensive food, which is better?

whilst being rich allows u to enjoy life at the peak of economical waves, spending money on all the huge international branded goods, LV, Gucci, Armani, Prada, eating restaurant dishes every 2 - 3 days. Now here's the question, when you are already so rich, how will u feel satisfied with what you already have? wont you crave for more than what u alr have? How to feel superior and richer than you alr are, when u are alr at the peak of monetary affairs? the kick comes in when you dont know how to spend your money and enjoy at the same time. becuz u start to flaunt your wealth, overlooking the value of hardearned money.

and to most of the ppl in this world who craves to be rich and powerful, ppl say, when some things are yours, you dont need to go searching for it and it will automatically come to you, however, when its not yours, no matter how hard you try or how much you sacrifice, it still wont be yours, so whats the point of wasting your life, dreaming about what you dont have, it wont come to you either if u spend ur time dreaming about it. instead, why not spend your time enjoying what you already have? the word is "Gratitude". be satisfied with what you already have and more will come to you. greed leads to despair.

being rich doesnt mean being happy.

the richest man on earth may see himself at the top of the world, with no friends to share his fame and wealth, and no more goals, target nor desires, except to ask for more, or to maintain what he already has.

the poorest man may see himself as the luckiest person on earth and may possibly be the happiest man on earth with everything to gain and nothing to lose.

whats your point?

i know this post is boring, but while working today, i thought of that =.=

2010-04-18T01:37:00.000-07:00

The Mass Communicator
You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test65.aspx

my test result =D try urs!

2010-04-16T09:12:00.000-07:00

Cakes, the delicacy enjoyed by many people in the world
Taste of delight when the cream melts on your tongue
A sharp rise of taste and temptation, unable to resist another bite

this is my favourite cake... cheesecake. LOL

2010-04-05T06:18:00.001-07:00

some ppl say i nv update blog for v long time
some ppl tag me to tell me to update!!
so here it is =D:

been working at F&N for a month (this is the 4th week) now, and it has been quite enjoyable, except i m always late lol
used to the working environment now, v tired in the morning, active in the afternoon, and watching the time pass very fast after lunch =D

one thing that i CONFIRM will do every monday morning: Majonnier Fat Test
i can close my eyes and do alr now
i also played with some chemicals =D
ethanol, sulphuric acid (very hot! one accidental drop on my hand and its prolonged corrosive effect made my hand become red for very long ) NaOH (very poisonous gas produced when u add water to dissolve the solid residues, which i added in the fume chamber) playing around with titration acidity, and reversing the effect, and titrating again -.-

today the company celebrated the opening of dunno what branch, packaging branch, then my supervisor asked me to go and eat, they catered hotel food, which was quite nice, then i brought jessie and yiting along too, we had planned to go pentec actually lol, but the food there was free and very worth it at the cost of our own canteen food-.-
they said the catering budget was $50 per pax, but each person only ate around $3, means they got ALOT of left overs, my supervisor asked me to go tabao for them, damn paiseh somemore so many ppl there, so i didnt help them in the end =D

pictures:

syaiful - father of 2, but damn childish...and pervertic LOL
favourite topic of discussion: woman

Mr Meslam

my direct incharge, old man, naggy and grumppy sometimes, but treats me well =D

Ah hwa, my colleague

very nice guy from Ipoh, Malaysia

taught me alot of things, both good and bad, a good friend =D

Tien hwa's favourite pose

my little niece =D

she is very irritating -.-

she loves the big stitch i gave my sis

xin wang dessert...damn filling

F&N FNF QC lab

doing protein digestion (similar to kjhael method, but more ulu)

PS: Anticipating tmr and friday =D

2010-03-27T01:52:00.000-07:00

sorrry sandra have to cancel outing again =x

2010-03-22T05:50:00.001-07:00

my attachment:
i got to know that my supervisor whom i m directly under, is actually very guai lan kind...frm my working colleagues, but then i m okay for now, becuz i didnt really do anything to displease him, i also gave him my proj3 brownie recipe... =D it wasnt a brownie until during the exhibition everyone called it a brownie -.- it was supposed to be a pudding...LOL vast difference but he liked it alot hahaha

i enjoyed myself well, my colleagues i get along best with is Ah hwa, Ah ho, Samat, Syaiful, Angela, Veejay, and also Maslam and Marian. all of them are appraochable actually, but Tien Hwa said some of them, or 3 of the ppl inside that list are backstabbers so must becareful around them ?
=x

anyway my atttachment work is fun at first, boring after that, and super routined now... boring. but i get to taste foods and products of F&N esp milk! now i m a lil phobic towards milk LOL
yogurt was my favourite until i ate too much and ended up having diarrhea, now is BIG M =D i gave yiting one today on our way home =)

alot to say, dunno what to say. so just leave it here
byebye

2010-03-17T08:15:00.000-07:00

practice what i preach =D
i must compromise, give in, and not be an ass

sorrrrrrrrry to u =x

2010-03-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

- you HATE to give in, and u bloody never give in at all
- you WONT give in until someone else does
- you LOVE to win, and u hate to admit ur faults when problems occur
- you cant even take a little temper from others
- you are always on the winning side, it forms a boundary between u and me
- you wont ever SWALLOW down ur pride and absorb some of other people's unhappiness
- you counter other people's attitude with YOUR attitude

things will never go right if you NEVER wanna compromise
be it the consequences of this blog post, but if u refuse to take this fact, then it will lead us nowhere

2010-03-15T06:32:00.000-07:00

THANKS: SANdRA AND ROUfANG
sandra msg me @6am this morning: good luck for ur attachment!
roufang: wakey wakey. LOL

first day attachment..my officier incharge was late for almost 2 hrs-.-
then did those chemical testing stuff for QC..quite ok la hahaha
ok sleepy...byebye

2010-03-13T10:00:00.000-08:00

today, my day shall be known as hear-all-weird-accent day
ok i work HFC atrium promoting toys @ 930am
i took the train from tiong bahru...dunno whats wrong with my blur brain today, i thought i work at IMM cuz i usually work at IMM for action toyz, but the promotion fair was at HFC, so i took train towards Jookoon, then when the train stopped at queenstown, the door close alr then i realise, eh, wth i work at HFC should take to outram, why am i in this train?!
then i hurry sms Alan my boss tell him i m late, then i at next stop faster change train to the opposite one, then to outram change to purple line to HFC.
reach at 940am =D
late!
then after that i start helping to put price tags (boring)
Alan is a philiphine, he speaks in the weirdest accent and laugh the weirdest laughter i ever heard =.=

so i spent 13 hours of my day talking to him in his weird accent
listening to him in his weird accent
chatting with him in his weird accent
joking with him in his weird accent
and doing everything thats gotta do with his weird accent

2 break times which i spend wisely sitting down...becuz my work of 12hrs cannot sit down! -.-
after that end work at 10pm~ finally~~
i went out to sms roufang, then while sms-ing
this weird accent man talked to me "excuse me may i know where can i change currency?"
then i looked at him, his name was Aramond, age 20, from indonesia out to singapore on a backpacker's trip, without a sing dollar! -.-
then i was like... where the hell u wanna change money at 10.30pm at HFC when all shops are closed o_O
then i asked him, talked to him abit, thats how i got to know about him, then i took pity on him, brought him to the money changer nearby to check, closed-.-
then we walked to vivo de money changer, hoping it is open... closed! -.-
then after that, we were like...how are u gonna spend ur night here in Sg with a dollar?
so i helped him ask a jewellery shop lady, she said all cloes alr at this hr, she said go Mustaffa got 24hr money changer, so we took cab there, i told him to stay in the cab once we reach Mustaffa and i change 200,000 ringit for him, then only convert to S$30.32 -.-
then paid the taxi driver...i had to communicate with that Indonesian man with his weird accent all the way...then it was around 11.30pm alr, i no train home, but nvm, cuz this man no place to stay for the night -.-
so i helped him look for a hotel to check in, we went to the nearby money changer again to change more money...he changed S$ 100 then we went to the hotel..one night stay was $120 O_O!

then i said nvm, lets go look elsewhere, on the way looking for other hotels he kept thanking me wanting to treat me dinner for helping...i keep saying dun wan becuz i had dinner at home my mum cooked for me (only to realise that when i get home, mum didnt cook at all!)
after that all the hotels we checked were $120++++++++
so he said he wanted to check the chinatown hotels, so we cab to chinatown, the first stop..hotel 81, we went there...it was alr 12am, then i asked one night stay for one person, $129.. o_O! more ex than mustaffa!

then we looked around more, we asked around also, then i asked this pair of indian guys, "where to find cheap cheap hotels for one night ah?"
the man said "cheap cheap ah, just over there(points there), but i not sure one man how much, i think 1 hour should be quite cheap"
i was thinking, where gt ppl stay one hr...
then he continued "u ask the girls there, i think some girls charge cheaper"
then i was like O_O no i wasnt looking for girls
then after that sua, we went looking..got alot hotel...dragon hotel. backpackers inn, all charge 25 - 30 dollars, but all full hse -.- then uncle say usually sat weekends night sure full hse, i thinking that i know the reason why..lol

then after that we finally said ok, last one, dont have just check in hotel 81 no choice, it was 1230am
then we went there...$129, he only had $110 with him, i realise we took cab also need money LOL
and then finalllyyy sua i asked another passerby, he said go to outram park there nearby got hotel cheap cheap, then we took the last bet, took cab there again..then saw the hotel $89...cheapest of the day! LOL
then we went there...full house again!!
then the taxi uncle v kind he said i think got hotel 81 nearby tb just opened..i was delighted..becuz v near my hse and i wanna sleep!
then after thatcab there, i hurry went down and ask...LUCKY 2 more rooms!!
we hurry check in, then Aramond said he wanted to treat me supper.
i said nvm la i have dinner at home alr (or so i thought)
then, 1am...we went to coffee shop i see him eat, my stomach growling-.-
then after that eat alr, he made a phone call, then i say i gtg alr, then okok separate, i teach him how to walk back to the hotel...then i walk home -.- 1.30am
reach home...NO FOOD!
but lucky my uncle n aunty came, bought 4 big boxes of donuts, i never tasted a donut as good as this, for the first time...

SIAN RIGHT!
who ask me kpo
-.-
but but the taxi uncle who drove us to tb hotel 81 said "你那么热心阿，谢谢你”
“你谢我干吗？”
“我帮他谢谢你！”
LOL
uncle helped the stranger to thank me, and that stranger whom i helped thanked me too... hehe =D

so in the end my dinner was donuts... lol
end of story, walked with that strange accent stranger for the whole night, and listened to my boss's strange accent whole day...total fatigue -.-

to you: no matter what others may do to u, i will be there for u =D

2010-03-11T10:00:00.001-08:00

Traveller:"He is the drunken immortal, he needs his wine to be saved"
Elder Monk:"We will send a walking monk"
Immortal: "Dont you have a running monk"?

2010-03-11T09:11:00.000-08:00

吃得苦中苦，方为人上人
天下无难事，只怕有心人

dont give up on the journey of life
who knows, u might just overcome fate with will?

2010-03-07T11:17:00.001-08:00

is the bond so weak that it can be dissolved by a simple matter of financial indifference?

whats money?
what does it do and why does it exist?

to pull and enlarge the gap between those high flyers and those low crawlers?

2010-03-05T05:53:00.000-08:00

i love you =)

finally exam over lol
sat --> go melvin hse with leslie n elwood , plus go IMM with roufang
sun --> dominic's house, jogging
mon --> school for a stupid 3 hour briefing, jogging
tue --> steamboat (not confirmed)
wed --> roufang's house, swimming
thur --> sushi buffet =D

busy -.-

2010-02-19T09:15:00.000-08:00

taken at N6, my favourite place in school =D

editted by grace LOL

2010-02-18T07:14:00.000-08:00

lol these photos forgot to upload

love the sentosa trip and the ppl who went! =D

2010-02-15T11:26:00.000-08:00

why do people always find it wrong, and yet deny the fact, even though they know full well that its the fact -.-
whats wrong with saying? and whats wrong with knowing....
becuz all u ppl have perception that it is all guys think the same thing in common?
or is it the wrong perception from the very start?
who knows

2010-02-13T06:09:00.000-08:00

Had a very fun class outing! =D
check out either sam, sumi or fala's blog, they might post it up there?
or they might not, cuz of CNY preparation/exams HAHA

Guess what? siti's also naked ^^

this is roufang =D

can u see who is who??

Check out my boobs

photographer for the Night ~

2010-02-12T21:18:00.000-08:00

maybe u wont even gain back what u have lost?
maybe it will only occur once, and once its gone, and u will never get it back, no matter what u do??

2010-02-09T08:32:00.000-08:00

if i really hate waiting for u, then tell me
why the f do i still end up waiting for u, no matter how long it is
the fact is, i dont hate waiting... i m not impatient, but if there is no point waiting, why the hell shld i be there for?
and i was there all the time waiting...
for what?

thanks for asking me that question..."for what"???

2010-02-08T08:31:00.001-08:00

Jake was dying, his wife sat at his bedside. Jake looked up and said weakly, "I have something I must confess."
"There is no need to," his wife replied. "No" he insisted,
"I want to die in peace, i slept with your sister, your best friend, her best friend and your mother!"
"I know, I know," She replied, "Now just rest and let the poison work."

2010-02-08T08:13:00.000-08:00

When you are bored, this is what happens:

2010-02-04T09:08:00.000-08:00

look at this unglam lecturer -.- lol

2010-02-04T08:52:00.000-08:00

Adapted from Grace's blog..LOL

proj 3 exhibition was quite successful, during exhibition took photos with kavitha sumitha(took alot photos with her) hh roufang nuraini ruiying fala siti, but the photos dunno evaporate where alr...LOL

fs0801 ppl are nicer than they look

eliza and her friends gave me 2 packet of mooncakes before they left

rafe gave me their drink to try

zijie offered their bread product

chiyong gave me they barley pudding/jelly

then fs0803 ppl also

alex and amir let me taste their drink

jasmine asked me to try their tofu product

alot more but i forgotten-.-

today had p n p ppt, then i think i really anyhow sia..the ppt was v brief

then questions n answer part ask me also quite easy, and i answered until like dunno wat-.-

duno whats wrong with me LOL

before that invited ms gan and mr tsk to come to ltq 6 to celebrate their bday

was quite rush becuz we didnt expect tsk to take half day off

so me n ruiying rush up to get the cake, borrow a lighter rom Q6 (forgot to return -.-)

then after that light up those undying flames of the candle..LOl

then after that sang bday song, then ms gan n tsk tried blowing off the candles but the flame keep coming back LOL was quite funny... =D

then after that cut cake talk rubbish then tsk n ms gan left...

then nuraini also passed mr thomas a farewell card from our class =D

he was quite touched i think? hahaha

okay nothing much left to say...cya

2010-02-02T07:46:00.001-08:00

Pieces by pieces, all falling back together in place! =Dhapppy! ^^ Learn to enjoy the process, what we are experiencing now, dont hate it ^^

2010-01-29T09:17:00.000-08:00

i m happy that most things are solved! =D
photos:

2010-01-28T06:26:00.000-08:00

girl i'll never understand.. =x

2010-01-27T05:13:00.000-08:00

today celebrated thawit's 20th bday hahaha!

2010-01-26T05:39:00.001-08:00

today was quite ok, had only project 3 since lec n tut all cancelled lol
ok summarise, on my way to school, me n roufang saw this girl who collapsed, and then she looked like she was in pain, and then i went over to see if i could help...the thing with the girl is that her spinal bones had some problems and she was in pain... i offered to call the ambulance but she didnt wanted to=x
then i dunno what to do, she cant even stand up...then some passer bys just walk pass but also cant help anything =x
so i called sandra since she was in nursing, but she didnt pick up...and then i called ms gan. she said she would call an ambulance since the girl cant even stand and walk...then after that ms gan asked a health science lecturer and came down to the spot where we were, NYP entrance.
after that the lecturer and ms gan talked to her, then asked her some medical stuff..family problems, but the girl insisted that she doesnt wan to go to the hospital due to her family's financial problems, so in the end ms gan contacted the family... then i had to rush back to school as HH was already waiting for me as i was already LATE
then after that i reach N6, then huihua was angry, becuz jr was also late without a valid reason...
after that i found out from ms gan that the girl was able to stand up in the end, and she went home... i heard from her talk with ms gan and the other staffs, that her mother passed away, and her dad was the sole bread winner... life is pretty tough for her.. schooling, home utilities, her medical condition... i felt sad to hear that ='(

then after that had prac, my mood went up again..lol then after that play play did prac, successful result! hehe =D
then after that huihua become angry again cause we ate her banana..=x
then after prac ended (we did 2 trials) only left me roufang thawit juinrong huihua and joanna grp's grp =D
then me n hh actually planned to run today, then we drag drag till v late..6pm..she became angry again then left the lab..=x
sorry huihua! cheer up

PS: i m very happy today, irregardless of whatever happened today... becuz i feel that there is still some light within the darkness

2010-01-25T07:19:00.000-08:00

its been a month since last christmas!
fights, quarrels and many other memorial events happened within a month
but all these helps to strength our bond, and also helps us understand each other better.
i learn to compromise more, and give in... i learn to control my anger and what i say

but no matter what, i m glad to have you by myside =D
- ---- ---

2010-01-22T09:39:00.000-08:00

u wont believe it if i said it now
but, friends are important to me
they are like almost everything to me
things happen becuz i didnt speak up
and u are always the one initiating the convo

i made a terrible mistake this time
really terrible
but, everyone, please knw that ANYTHING and EVERYTHING i said when i m in anger, is NOT TRUE!!
i dont mean them, i cant think properly. i cant control myself, when i m angry

i dont ask for forgiveness
i dont ask for help
i dont ask for anything else from you
but i m sorry, i m really really sorry for hurting you

i know that whether or not this post is seen by the intended person, it will make no difference
but just know that i dont mean ANYTHING out of the convo i said... i m not begging for forgiveness, but please just understand, its NOT true about what i said in the convo.

thank you joanna, grace, fadleelah and kavitha for listening and understanding. it helps
and of course thank you ROUFANG for being there always... thank you!

2010-01-22T07:58:00.001-08:00

sometimes when things accumluates and snowballs
it gets bigger and bigger by the day
and then, suddenly, everything, all together, they go boom!
then everythings gone...
u will never get it back... even if u do, its gonna be whats left of the remnants...

no point regretting it... i was the one who pulled the trigger, and started the ball rolling...

when you are out of bullets, it doesnt mean u have to discard the gun
when you are out of luck, doesnt mean u have to stop trying
when you are out of money, doesnt mean you have to go begging
and
when you are out of ideas and solutions, doesnt mean you want to end it all...

i m out of bullets. and the only solution that came to me was to end it all... but i still regretted...
-.- the only positive thing left is only one more year to go

2010-01-21T07:38:00.001-08:00

after everything's been solved, i feel happy and relived to the extent i became v sleepy...lol
but things in conclusion for me: i rarely get angry, and if i do, i cant control what i say, therefore i say v hurtful things...i must control!

to cousin lion.... hope everything ok for u too! :D

2010-01-16T08:56:00.000-08:00

haha, updates
FRI: lec was at 9am, a little late, then went in class, listened to boring lec by deborah, then after that 2nd hour was tutorial, and then we got chased out by deborah becuz we didnt do our tut, she bias until only let 01 ppl stay... haha, i gave chocolate to thawit nicholas jiesen juinrong(we shared one -.-) roufang liling samantha grace tiffany amanda, the TAGS were like "huh, today ur bday or what. suddenly so nice to us.." lol
then after school, discussed abit fpp stuff with the guys, which went well, then after that went jogging in the gym with hh rf and jr, i like the running machine... ^^

SAT: working full shift, 930am - 1030pm, i overslept in the train and reach at like 940am o_O
then i quickly rush to the place, open up, do my stuff, login and enter pw etc etc
then after that, started rotting till around 1230 ayu came! finally, then i went out to toilet~
after that around 2pm ayu bought lunch for me. THANKS
then sandra LAU came to find me at 430pm, when she was supposedly meeting me at 3pm =.=
then we talked alot, abt me, abt her, abt some other disappointing peoples...
then i gave her tons of food, for free, LOL and then she left, eric came... then started working, talk talk play play, then bully ayu, then disturb eric n his 'gf' then after that, closing...
on my train way, eric sent me a sms: "friends are like balloons, you will never get it back once you let go, therefore i m tying you to my heart. send this sms to your friends and when u get back 4 replies, you are someone special =)"
i think its true, and eric is a nice guy =.= lol

ok gtg do the tons of hw and heaps of projects. ciaosu~

2010-01-15T07:53:00.000-08:00

how do u measure the worth of a friend?
their ability to accept u no matter who you are?
the heart of graciousness to befriend you for who you are?
and the decision to respect you no matter what choice u make?

listen here, YOU are not a true friend, think of how you treat those who regarded you as their "friend"

2010-01-12T07:43:00.000-08:00

忍一时风平浪劲，退一步海阔天空

对不起=x

2010-01-12T04:55:00.000-08:00

sometimes, i just dont know what the FUCK u want!
if u want to talk, why cant u initiate it,
if u want to join in, whose stoppping you??
then u have to go on and show ur fucking attitude to me when i talked
thn after that offer me something to eat, u think i will like it????????
u are selfish!

if u want to continue, then stop this shit
if u want to end it all, FINE!

why do i always have to give in??? because all i did was 'never talk to u'?!
i never found any fault in u, i just hoped u had a better attitude! so please just decide on what u want! tell me straight to the face!

2010-01-11T02:36:00.000-08:00

things happen because of ur selfishness
ur proud self esteem
and ur huge ego that makes u shut up and keep things to urself
so just open ur mouth and talk... zzz

2010-01-07T10:29:00.001-08:00

i like u for who u are..lol

i went out today, bought Spade shirt, pants, and got a free belt and a free membership card..LOL but i spent $107 =.=
then when i opened my closet and took out somethings i realised i had alot more clothes i bought but never even touch b4-.-
now i have 2 new belts, 5 new shirts, 2 new pants, 1 new shoe, and a new bag lol
i spent about $313 on those -.-
and i want to buy the vest from far east $60 o.o''

ok i buy alot things then pok alr, melvin de $35 still havent return him lmao!
ok byebye

2010-01-04T08:57:00.001-08:00

this wasnt even how things were supposed to be!!!
SHIT it all

2009-12-31T09:25:00.000-08:00

happy new year!

lol

i have a great year, but i wish for an even better one ahead :D greedy right!

(if u were willing to tell and share, you would have been a great friend)

2009-12-26T10:28:00.000-08:00

i m glad with how the way things turn out
i m happy. ^^

work was fine today, BSL came over ytd, and it gives me azri n ayu headache, becuz we will be incharge the shift we are working
and then it is so troublesome-.-

2009-12-23T11:04:00.001-08:00

its very weird ahh!!
from now on, how??

2009-12-23T04:32:00.001-08:00

went to malaysia today with my mom, dad and brother
woke up at 10am..so sleepy -.- yawn
then after that bath breakfast then took bus to bugis, then took the bus heading to woodsland checkpoint
bought tickets $2.40 each
then after that check scan and went thru ICA barricades lol
then took bus 160 to JB...so damn crowded, and so stuffy bus =.= somemore traffic jam for 1 hour zzz
reach at 1pm, then we went to eat herbal duck rice lol
my family complaint it wasnt nice...but i think it was ok la, but the duck not much taste baahah
then went shopping at JBcentral, i only changed 30SGD, my bro changed 20SGD parents changed 200SGD
then i bought a pair of jeans, my mum bought some jewellery..fake ones though-.-
dad bought ciggarette ... ...
brother didnt buy anything at all -.-!
lol then we shop shop walk around for 3 hours plus, seeing clothes see this see that
until 4pm my mom say leg tired liao
then we went to secret recipe...ate ALOT of things, spaghetti, chicken chop, fish n chips, double delight icecream, vanilla milkshake, chocolate caramel, banana split..ALOT la..then the bill came, only cost 90RM so cheap right LOL secret recipe somemore
then after that i kup 20RM, bro used his 50RM as he had no use of the money either, didnt buy anything-.- mum n dad paid the rest lol
after that bought 5 ala carte cakes home, mom paid again
then after that we walk abit more, then go home.
journey home was tiring, very sleepy alr!
didnt take anything pictures..as always haha

2009-12-21T07:19:00.000-08:00

是时候进行自我反省了！

2009-12-18T07:26:00.000-08:00

last paper today
yay~
i did the paper for half n hour, then after that like nothing else to do alr, those i dunno how to do de is really dunno, so i went n doodle at the back of the paper
i wrote LAST PAPER
then drew some pictures n decorating the words
then when ms tay went around to collect the paper at the end, she saw mine and said, 'eh thats cute'
i was like o_O
becuz usually lecturers collect the papers facing up, and she collected it face down..lol
after the exam, celebrated birthday for jessie roufang and samantha... (14,17 and 22nd) respectively hahaah! happy bday!
then after that jessie sumi went for a talk, then we hang around, walking here n there, after that me roufang jessie and juinrong went to eat Xin wang, very full
then after that bought a box of durian and went to jessie house watch tv LOL
at first say 6pm leave, then 7pm, then drag till 8pm then left..hahaha
her mum was friendly and her dad looked stern =.=
then left for home

2009-12-14T23:16:00.001-08:00

it sucks when u see someone in real need of help
but you cant do anything to help them

2009-12-12T08:06:00.000-08:00

on 22nd august, 4 people sat on the bench near the stadium to study for exams while having fun
4 months later on the 13th dec, the same 4 people sat on the same bench, on the exact same position, studying for common test.

lol

2009-12-09T06:27:00.000-08:00

and soon the whole class became exhausted LOL

even sandra!^^

Peiyee last to join! hahaha
Exhausted 17? LOL

2009-12-09T04:46:00.000-08:00

99th post title shall be:

FS0802 ^^

look at the picture..hahaha!

at first ruiying put exhausted!

then i copied her and put exhausted too.

then fala copied me, sumi copied fala

and then they asked everyone in class to copy

in sequence of the number! hahaha

class is so united today rofl!

good good!

then samantha came online...and she joined our ranks! hahaha!

wooo lovely day! ^^

2009-12-05T06:24:00.001-08:00

i hate hangovers

today went out to watch movie "ninja assassins"
nice but bloody lol

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Gemini:

Positive Traits:
Adaptable and versatile
Communicative and witty
Intellectual and eloquent
Youthful and lively

Negative Traits:
Nervous and tense
Superficial and inconsistant
Cunning and inquisitive

i think i really think too much all the time...lol
i m sorry to everyone and my bro

2009-12-04T04:07:00.001-08:00

school ended at 12pm today lol
so we went to amk hub to watch New moon, not too bad, but abit anti-climax lol
after movie me jr sumi rf went to S11 next to amk hub to eat n drink
then belinda and koonhua came and look for me
we all went shoppin for my bro de bday present.. XD
then after that me belinda and koonhua talked alot of crap hahaa
then we went home tgt, bel bought her earpiece b4 that
then bel dropped off at city hall, me n koon hua followed her, then trained towards jookoon, i went home, and koonhua went home, we all talked alot on train lol

2009-12-01T23:55:00.000-08:00

i tried

but its hard

so i gave up

pretending is hard

so i gave up too

Long road to ruins

Lies striaght from your hollow eyes

Under the cold streetlight

With no tomorrow in sight