u wont believe it if i said it now
but, friends are important to me
they are like almost everything to me
things happen becuz i didnt speak up
and u are always the one initiating the convo

i made a terrible mistake this time
really terrible
but, everyone, please knw that ANYTHING and EVERYTHING i said when i m in anger, is NOT TRUE!!
i dont mean them, i cant think properly. i cant control myself, when i m angry

i dont ask for forgiveness
i dont ask for help
i dont ask for anything else from you
but i m sorry, i m really really sorry for hurting you

i know that whether or not this post is seen by the intended person, it will make no difference
but just know that i dont mean ANYTHING out of the convo i said... i m not begging for forgiveness, but please just understand, its NOT true about what i said in the convo.

thank you joanna, grace, fadleelah and kavitha for listening and understanding. it helps
and of course thank you ROUFANG for being there always... thank you!